At the time, I was so broken after the loss of our son that all I could do was just walk through the peaceful place that my son and someday WE would call our resting place. I noticed several things. 1. we were NOT the first to lose a child so young and we probably wouldn't be the last sadly. 2. I found peace there in the quiet. I found love there with those who were no longer part of THIS world. 3. I came eye to eye with my own mortality. 4. I found the headstone that caught my eye.
While the headstone was "similar" to the one we had made, they were both very different. Little did I know that the mother of that child would be my good friend. Would be the person everyone told me I should meet at church and didn't until a month or so later. She has been through SO much, yet she took that anger, sadness and frustration and daily gave it to God where HE used it to build on her strength. The very same strength God had given her to lift her even on days when it has been hard for her to stand.
Now, I'm not going to go into detail about my dear friend. That's HER story to tell if she ever decides to do so. I will say that she has been a HUGE drive for me as I watch HER faith walk just as I have with Patti. BOTH women have such faith and it really helps me through this chronic fear that I've held onto for so long. I've been ready to let it go. Read to put down the fear, TRUST GOD and step out of my comfort zone to better my life Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
The last several months I've been praying about where to go from here. I've noticed on my own that I can't be fully fit without all three in balance. If one is off, there is a HUGE imbalance. I can be physically fit but what good would it do if I was SO emotionally incapable to LIVE because of the chronic fear and anxiety that seemed to get worse after the traumatic loss of our son? Furthermore I can be in EXCELLENT shape and finally free from anxiety but without God who brought me here and walked me through the worst experience and best experiences of my life, my life would be...empty. Like a HUGE part of me is missing.
So today I have chosen to LIVE. Not just live but REALLY FULLY LIVE life on purpose! My goal is to get all three aspects (Physical, emotional and spiritual) in balance and in great health. God as my center of course and the rest will come.
Today, as I share a piece of the chapter with you that my dear friend used to encourage MY walk. I pray that each of you LIVE FULLY. We only get one life here to live. LIVE it FULLY with God, LIVE It fully with good health in the vessel God has given you and finally, LIVE fully away from Anger, disappointment, fear and judgement. It will only keep YOU from living a life FULL of blessings that YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER Has for YOU! Let go and trust God. There's a purpose for your life!
I will protect those who trust in my name.
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.
and give them my salvation.”
Psalm 91 Verse 14-16
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Aww, Thank YOU dear friend!
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