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Wednesday, December 18, 2013

A Friendship Filled With Gods Promises

Someone close to me has blessed me with scripture.  I have two close friends who do this. One is Patti who lives in Idaho and the other is someone I met before I really knew her. It started when I was looking at head stones in the cemetery. We were urged to take a look and see if there was anything that caught my eye.

At the time, I was so broken after the loss of our son that all I could do was just walk through the peaceful place that my son and someday WE would call our resting place. I noticed several things.  1. we were NOT the first to lose a child so young and we probably wouldn't be the last sadly.   2. I found peace there in the quiet. I found love there with those who were no longer part of THIS world.  3. I came eye to eye with my own mortality.  4. I found the headstone that caught my eye.

While the headstone was "similar" to the one we had made, they were both very different.  Little did I know that the mother of that child would be my good friend. Would be the person everyone told me I should meet at church and didn't until a month or so later.  She has been through SO much, yet she took that anger, sadness and frustration and daily gave it to God where HE used it to build on her strength. The very same strength God had given her to lift her even on days when it has been hard for her to stand.

Now, I'm not going to go into detail about my dear friend. That's HER story to tell if she ever decides to do so. I will say that she has been a HUGE drive for me as I watch HER faith walk just as I have with Patti.  BOTH women have such faith and it really helps me through this chronic fear that I've held onto for so long.  I've been ready to let it go. Read to put down the fear, TRUST GOD and step out of my comfort zone to better my life Physically, emotionally and spiritually.

The last several months I've been praying about where to go from here. I've noticed on my own that  I can't be fully fit without all three in balance. If one is off, there is a HUGE imbalance.  I can be physically fit but what good would it do if I was SO emotionally incapable to LIVE because of the chronic fear and anxiety that seemed to get worse after the traumatic loss of our son?  Furthermore I can be in EXCELLENT shape and finally free from anxiety but without God who brought me here and walked me through the worst experience and best experiences of my life, my life would be...empty. Like a HUGE part of me is missing.

So today I have chosen to LIVE. Not just live but REALLY FULLY LIVE life on purpose! My goal is to get all three aspects (Physical, emotional and spiritual) in balance and in great health. God as my center of course and the rest will come.

Today, as I share a piece of the chapter with you that my dear friend used to encourage MY walk.  I pray that each of you LIVE FULLY.  We only get one life here to live. LIVE it FULLY with God, LIVE It fully with good health in the vessel God has given you and finally, LIVE fully away from Anger, disappointment, fear and judgement. It will only keep YOU from living a life FULL of blessings that YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER Has for YOU! Let go and trust God. There's a purpose for your life!

 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.
 When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.
I will reward them with a long life
and give them my salvation.”
Psalm 91 Verse 14-16

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

A Change Is In The Air...

 I have been approached by a local coach here in CNY who is meeting with me THIS WEEK. Upon Dr.'s approval (which I plan to get tomorrow) He is talking with a local shop owner to fit me with the gear I need and be my coach. He is also a vegetarian and will help me with dietary needs throughout this journey. We will go over my fitness level (I reminded him it's not much) and what I plan to enter. In exchange for all of this. A thank you and the approval to be an advocate for exercise and health and willing to be in the media. 

Last night I prayed about this and knew as a Stay-At-Home mom, there would be NO WAY for me to afford my dream unless I was chosen by CNN. Gods answer? Oh yes you can! Here I am beginning a journey that will not only get me healthy but will save my life and set an example for my daughter and anyone like me.

Which brings me to the next subject. I think things are going to change in here once again.  I'm going to be blogging about my experience to good health and well-being. I'm also going to blog about my "active" life with our little bear.  My hope is that we'll be able to incorporate HER into our healthy lifestyle and give her a head start to a life filled with good health not just physically, but emotionally AND spiritually. I'm starting to understand that there needs to be a balance of all three.  Maybe there will be someone out there who will benefit from my strengths or even my weaknesses.  I'm going into this knowing that it's okay to make mistakes!  My friend Deanna (a Triathlete herself) has told me the only competition you have is with yourself. NO ONE else matters. You race against your last time. 

Already my journey has been positive. After all, I got off the couch and pushed past fear and anxiety to get to where I am. Without God, none of this would have happened. For that I am grateful!

Monday, November 4, 2013

Entered CNN's Fit Nation Triathlon Challenge Contest.

If anyone is out here lurking, please support me in what could be a life changing experience.  Check out my video on CNN.  Comment and share with everyone you know. The more exposure I get the better it will be for Fit Nation and Sanjay Gupta to see my aspirations and help me help myself.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

10 Pounds Down And A LOVELY Autumn Season

 Our Little Strawberry
Baby Bear's Favorite Person, Her Daddy!

Special time right now. I know I'm not posting a whole lot, I'm trying to enjoy time with our sweet girl while also getting more active. That means less time on the internet.  So far I'm down 10 pounds.  With 36 pounds left to go for my short term goal.

We love the Autumn season!  Took baby bear out to grandparents for Halloween.  It was SO fun.

This week, we're trying to finish the winterization and hunker down for what sounds like will be a pretty rough winter.  I hope we're prepared enough.  It's cold and rainy today.  We managed to finish mowing the front lawn but still need to get the rest of the leaves.  We cleaned out the gutters again for winter.  All the windows in the house are sealed.

Next the garage windows will be sealed, the chairs will all be put up in the storage. THEN Comes the back lawn to be mowed, leaves to be taken up front and the deck cleaned as well as the deck furniture stored.  We hope to have the garden cleaned out and tilled by next weekend.  I'll be planting fall garlic shortly for next spring. SO excited as we love the snow, but just need to get things comfy and cozy.

I hope your all doing well.  We're looking at a new chapter which I plan to share in the next few weeks.   As it stands now, I'm making fun Plant-based warm meals for the season. Lots of veggie soups and stews.    The books are out and I'm reading three right now.  "1000 Gifts", "Created To Be His Helpmeet", and believe it or not a children's book called" The Boxcar Children" which I was told was a classic series worth reading to children.  I thought I'd read it first.  I love it and bet that most young children would LOVE the series.

What are YOU reading?  What's on your seasonal menu?

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Happy Birthday Baby Bear!

 Who would have thought THIS sweet baby girl would grow so quickly?!  From the day we brought her home, all I heard was "enjoy this time because it goes SO quickly".  I miss holding this sweet little baby, but...
 It's this little girl who is growing to mold me into the mother I am and hope to be in the future. God blessed me with this role. While it can be testing at times, I REALLY love the sweet and compassionate part of this little being.  She just LOVES.  At this stage, I notice the struggle she has in coming to her own. You know the "terrible 2's". I call them the "testing 2's". She's not terrible...the sinfulness in our world in US is the terrible. She's just a little one trying to figure things out.  Mommy and daddy are trying to figure out how to discipline in a loving way that will guide her footsteps. No is NOT a word we're afraid of.  It's one however, that baby bear is learning to understand. It is hard to believe that THIS cutie-patootie has a temper.  She loves hard, plays hard and is strong willed like her mom was.
 This is Elmo.  Elmo is just 1 of baby bear's favorite friends.
 More Sesame Street Friends!
Baby bear and her 2nd cousin once removed sit together and celebrate...LIFE!

Small And Sweet

© Shauna Scott
Small and Sweet.
My Little Girl so small and sweet,
Those tiny hands and tiny feet.
Everyday I watch you grow,
You teach me everything I know.
Such a joy to be around,
Every smile and every sound.
Number one you will stay,
Each and every single day.
You changed my life in such good ways,
''Thank You'' is all that I can say.
I love to watch you sleep at night,
Cuddled warm and wrapped up tight.
As I blink the time it flies,
It breaks my heart to see you cry.
I gave you life, so proud to say,
I'll love you more with every day.
My little Girl so small and sweet,
For you my heart, It beats and beats.

Source: My Little Girl So Small And Sweet, Baby Poem