A Friendship Filled With Gods Promises

Someone close to me has blessed me with scripture.  I have two close friends who do this. One is Patti who lives in Idaho and the other is someone I met before I really knew her. It started when I was looking at head stones in the cemetery. We were urged to take a look and see if there was anything that caught my eye.

At the time, I was so broken after the loss of our son that all I could do was just walk through the peaceful place that my son and someday WE would call our resting place. I noticed several things.  1. we were NOT the first to lose a child so young and we probably wouldn't be the last sadly.   2. I found peace there in the quiet. I found love there with those who were no longer part of THIS world.  3. I came eye to eye with my own mortality.  4. I found the headstone that caught my eye.

While the headstone was "similar" to the one we had made, they were both very different.  Little did I know that the mother of that child would be my good friend. Would be the person everyone told me I should meet at church and didn't until a month or so later.  She has been through SO much, yet she took that anger, sadness and frustration and daily gave it to God where HE used it to build on her strength. The very same strength God had given her to lift her even on days when it has been hard for her to stand.

Now, I'm not going to go into detail about my dear friend. That's HER story to tell if she ever decides to do so. I will say that she has been a HUGE drive for me as I watch HER faith walk just as I have with Patti.  BOTH women have such faith and it really helps me through this chronic fear that I've held onto for so long.  I've been ready to let it go. Read to put down the fear, TRUST GOD and step out of my comfort zone to better my life Physically, emotionally and spiritually.

The last several months I've been praying about where to go from here. I've noticed on my own that  I can't be fully fit without all three in balance. If one is off, there is a HUGE imbalance.  I can be physically fit but what good would it do if I was SO emotionally incapable to LIVE because of the chronic fear and anxiety that seemed to get worse after the traumatic loss of our son?  Furthermore I can be in EXCELLENT shape and finally free from anxiety but without God who brought me here and walked me through the worst experience and best experiences of my life, my life would be...empty. Like a HUGE part of me is missing.

So today I have chosen to LIVE. Not just live but REALLY FULLY LIVE life on purpose! My goal is to get all three aspects (Physical, emotional and spiritual) in balance and in great health. God as my center of course and the rest will come.

Today, as I share a piece of the chapter with you that my dear friend used to encourage MY walk.  I pray that each of you LIVE FULLY.  We only get one life here to live. LIVE it FULLY with God, LIVE It fully with good health in the vessel God has given you and finally, LIVE fully away from Anger, disappointment, fear and judgement. It will only keep YOU from living a life FULL of blessings that YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER Has for YOU! Let go and trust God. There's a purpose for your life!

 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.

I will protect those who trust in my name.

 When they call on me, I will answer;

I will be with them in trouble.

I will rescue and honor them.

I will reward them with a long life

and give them my salvation.”

Psalm 91 Verse 14-16

A Change Is In The Air...

 I have been approached by a local coach here in CNY who is meeting with me THIS WEEK. Upon Dr.'s approval (which I plan to get tomorrow) He is talking with a local shop owner to fit me with the gear I need and be my coach. He is also a vegetarian and will help me with dietary needs throughout this journey. We will go over my fitness level (I reminded him it's not much) and what I plan to enter. In exchange for all of this. A thank you and the approval to be an advocate for exercise and health and willing to be in the media. 

Last night I prayed about this and knew as a Stay-At-Home mom, there would be NO WAY for me to afford my dream unless I was chosen by CNN. Gods answer? Oh yes you can! Here I am beginning a journey that will not only get me healthy but will save my life and set an example for my daughter and anyone like me.

Which brings me to the next subject. I think things are going to change in here once again.  I'm going to be blogging about my experience to good health and well-being. I'm also going to blog about my "active" life with our little bear.  My hope is that we'll be able to incorporate HER into our healthy lifestyle and give her a head start to a life filled with good health not just physically, but emotionally AND spiritually. I'm starting to understand that there needs to be a balance of all three.  Maybe there will be someone out there who will benefit from my strengths or even my weaknesses.  I'm going into this knowing that it's okay to make mistakes!  My friend Deanna (a Triathlete herself) has told me the only competition you have is with yourself. NO ONE else matters. You race against your last time. 

Already my journey has been positive. After all, I got off the couch and pushed past fear and anxiety to get to where I am. Without God, none of this would have happened. For that I am grateful!